Tuesday, February 14, 2006

ahhh its just so frustrating....
and its being in this world where there isn't a future, there is no other days, theres just now.
deal with what you're feeling now... because thats enough.
how can i think of tomorrow when I'm just trying to get through today?

And why don't you pick up your phone>
this has affected me too....

I just can't be everything that everyone wants me to be.
I can't be it for you... I can't not be it for you... and i'm feeling at a loss right now.
And when you're gone - its this double parallel... and I wander around... mourning in a sense.
But then I don't have to deal with my mother. theres just so much going on right now.

I feel old. And I feel stretched too thin. Sometimes its like this has taken such a great toll... but when I'm with you it all goes away.

i miss you.
Rachael at 10:45 PM

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream, down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I..

Tears stream, down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I..

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.
- Fix you - Coldplay
Rachael at 10:29 PM